Thursday, January 31, 2008

Bore

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Suppose to go for my session on Fri but clinic called me to notify me that they are shifting house tomorrow, so will have to reschedule my appt.
So in the end I went today instead.
Mustered up all my courage to tell my temp doc to cancel one of my regular procedure and the drug that KO me as it always delayed me till 9 or 10plus pm and some of my friends said its over toxic.
Have to explain to my regular doc next month.
In the end, everything ends at abt 7.45pm and I reached home at 8plus pm.

Tomorrow gonna sync with boss caz he won't be in office from next week onwards until the week after.
No programmes for tomorrow and coming weekend, guess shall hibernate at home again ba.
Haven been watching any movie for almost a month liao..... shucks..... really feel like catching one soon.....

Nitey everyone.
Have a good Fri tomorrow.


Melonseedy Signing Off,
31 Jan 2008, 2330HRS

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Bad Shape

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Shucks, pay got delayed again.......
Walau a.... need the money to pay bills and to renew my road tax leh :-(
Today is Wed, skipped gym again caused foot still hurts.... sigh.... waste money.... think shouldn't renew it after it ends in Oct......

At night called one of my friend and she ask me am i ok.... my blog sounds like I'm in a bad shape......
Sigh..... guess my current status is really in a bad shape now..... demoralising everyday....
完全失去方向,就这样过着一天是一天的日子吗?


Melonseedy Signing Off,
30 Jan 2008, 2240HRS


Tuesday, January 29, 2008

No More Mr Nice

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Yesterday boss called our team in for meeting and informed us that there will be some changes in the company.
Then he wants Senior to take up more responsibility and wants to transfer me over to Oracle team for the next 3 months.
Initial plan was for me to start right after CNY, but today I was informed that it's one week later which is the 18th Feb week.


Drove for an hour to Defu for my first reunion dinner.
Walau a, the road damn confusing...... there were some roadworks and I guess they had blocked off some route which the online streetdirectory had thought me how to get there... haha.....
Luckily I still know how to read my manual ST alternatives and managed to reach there.
Motivates me to get my navigation phone leh, maybe will go and see after I get my Citibank-M1 credit card.

Came home direct after work.
Managed to catch up a bit with my ex-partner as she's seldom online.
Kinda of miss chatting with her face-to-face :-(
Will be meeting her for dinner next Mon :-)
Also made some decision, no more being Mr-Nice for the upcoming new year!
No more paying all the bills myself, 'Free trial & Special Promotions' is over.
Have decided to share monthly season-parking, roadtax and monthly SCV Maxonline cum TV charges with both brothers.
They can have their own car and subscription for themselves if not happy with my arrangement.
I had enough paying for everyone.
Although I draw higher pay, but please note that I still have to pay for my own hefty medical bills and my share of the car ok?

Boss will be going back to his hometown next week and will only be back after CNY.
Hope everything will be fine for the rest of the chinese year.......


Melonseedy Signing Off,
29 Jan 2008, 2300HRS


Monday, January 28, 2008

Lazy Week

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Wow..... consecutive 8 nights at home without going out.
People who knows me well finds it unbelievable too.
I myself also dunnoe wat happen, just dun feel like going out.

For the past week, had been resting a lot and sleeping early..... but still restless and tired.... wondered why...... is it because health is deterioriating? or cause I have been staying too much at home? haha......

Tomorrow having my first 'reunion dinner' of Year 2008 with my ex-colleagues.
Time to sleep... nitey everyone and hope everyone have a great week ahead :-)


Melonseedy Signing Off,
28 Jan 2008, 0058HRS

Thursday, January 24, 2008

4 Quiet Nights

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Consecutively 4 nights at home.
Had been sleeping early for the past 2 days, 11.30pm and 11.00pm.
Had wanted to go gym after work today but feet hurt and got work to do so skipped gym and brought work home to do.
Had dinner and just finished work, going to sleep liao.
Feel like catching a show, any kar kees?
Nitey everyone~~~~~~~~~


Melonseedy Signing Off,
24 Jan 2008, 0016HRS

Monday, January 21, 2008

Realising my NYR....

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Another busy day at work.
Doing my report that will be due this coming fri
Have to document all the things and changes that I've done for the project which I had embarked on ever since I have joined, sianz.
Was told to follow up a proj that had been hanging for several months..... kinda of 'lost'.... will follow up with boss tomorrow.
Boss told me most likely to do my appraisal with me tomorrow.
Initially wanna go gym to workout after work de but kinda of feverish and had been running to toilet since morning..... perhaps food poisoning ba..... shall go another day then.... better rest.....
After work came home direct.
Had dinner, watched tv, had my DI.
Managed to realise some of my NYRs, save money and had my DI.
Now going to realising the 3rd one which is to sleep earlier....... nitey everyone!


Melonseedy Signing Off,
21 Jan 2008, 2341HRS


Sunday, January 20, 2008

大哥

歌曲:大哥
歌手:卫兰
专辑:my love
作编:robert lay@on your mark
填词:林夕
监制:雷颂德
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如果兄妹相称太多
醒不起喜欢我
快研究和我这异性拍拖
讹称知己的真太多
当女共男未变爱侣
不吻过自然没结果
没有好感怎会相亲相爱大哥只是掩饰
能做对爱侣堕落成朋友
谁心息
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
曾经双手执一杆枪
想逼供你一趟
我和你无爱谁没有智商
如果恋爱必须创伤
想你亦明白到我俩
需开心都也受够伤

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Normal Wednesday

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Not much updates for today.
But will be meeting new client either thurs or fri.... so most likely can't dress down mah..... for image......
Quite busy today.... left office at 6.15pm and continue the rest tomorrow ba.....

After work went dinner and cuppa at Cafe211@HollandV.
Open concept roof terrace cafe..... quite nice and quiet.... good place to slack and have a cuppa...... think will go there again :-)

Tired...... going to sleep liao.....

Oyasuminasai.


Melonseedy Signing Off,
17 Jan 2oo8, 0033HRS

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Share or Take Over?

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14 Jan 2008 (Mon)
Zombied my way to work cause not enough sleep.
No surprise from my client about my project that just ended caused client also on leave.... hope everything will be well....
Boss treated a few of us to CrystalJadeXiaoLongBao@GWC during lunch time..... maybe he's in good mood?
After work went straight home to rest.
Had dinner and slacked till 12am then went to Zzzzz. Slept so early.... haha....

15 Jan 2008 (Tue)
Reached office at 10.30am.
Well guess wat, today is my exact 3 months in current firm.
Probation over liao..... should be appraised within these few days.
Knocked off at 6pm.
Had been thinking of excluding dad from the payment of car loan since he hadn't been using the car..... most likely will be giving my bro 2 options.....
Either to share the cost equally which means he has to pay $330 (Inclusive of season parking which he hadn't been paying at all) instead of the current $200 monthly.
Or I'll take over Bro's share too as well, save trouble.
Sigh.... need to find a time to discuss with him.....going to sleep liao..... aim to sleep earlier than yesterday... haha...
Nitey everyone~~~


Melonseedy Signing Off,
15th Jan 2008, 2321HRS

Monday, January 14, 2008

My Weekend

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10 Jan 2008 (Thu)
Boring and busy day at work.
Finally got some real work done by end of the day.
Went home straight right after work.

11 Jan 2008 (Fri)
Same old normal work day.
We had lunch at this special place behind our office..... quite a distance of walking..... on the way took some pics of the special scenes :-)

Last day of project liao, hope it really ends.
Boss told me next wed will have new proj for me.
So he gave me an ad-hoc one for the time being.... to create a telephone database for all our company's Asia Pacific branches. Managed to get the skeleton done in less than a few hours after our Project Management Training in the afternoon. Shown it to boss before I left at 6.30pm and think boss was quite impressed.
He reminded me to fill up my appraisal form which he will be appraising me soon. Probation will ends on 15th Jan.

At night went dinner with ex-colleagues at Jack'sPlace@MS
Yum yum..... we had their mixed grills, lamb shank, vegetarian spagetti (Special order) and Jack's Special. Then Biaomei wanted raw sugar for her kopi-o..... so I have to come up with some innovation for her...... lolz.... Initially wanted to watch movie after the dinner de.... but guess they still need to work the next day..... so we went home.
Reached home at 11plus pm and watched tv till 2am then slept.

12 Jan 2008 (Sat)
Woke up at 12plus pm and had breakie.
Slacked until 3pm plus and dozed off on my chair in front of my terminal.
Woked up abt 5pm and 'hooked' to a taiwan serial on table tennis on WOWTV.
They gave me free access..... so just watched to kill time lor...... watched until night manz..... lolz...
While watching dad told me he needs coins so went to dig out my $1 and 50cents coins saving to exchange with him. Had a total of $115 worth of 50cents coins and $101 worth of $1coins.... but in the end only exchanged $100 with him and kept the rest. Slept at 3am plus.

13 Jan 2008 (Sun)
Woke up at 11.30am.
Had some light brunch and camped in front of my terminal.
1pm plus went to Grandma's house for her birthday. Super late when I reached there..... they had already cut the cake and some of them had left liao.... haha....
Left at 3pm plus to pick Raine up and join the rest of FRB for gathering.
Initial plan was to go bowling but the crowd was super long so in the end we went for a movie, 'Amercian Gangster'. Super violent and lengthy show, haha. Anyway now then notice its a M18 rating show.
Then its left to the 4 of us to had our dinner at TheSecretRecipe@MS.
We had their grilled chicken and their award winning lamb stew.
Then took some pics of the belated birthday gal and the coming up birthday boy and the rest of us.

Happy Belated Birthday Elisa :-)
&
Happy Birthday In Advance for Saiful :-)
Quite a chop chop dinner...... went home after the dinner.
Reached home at 10+pm, bathed and downloaded my pics then blogged till now.
Going to sleep liao.... tomorrow need to work again......
Nitey everyone :-)


Melonseedy Signing Off,
14 Jan 2008, 0130HRS

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

I'm ???

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8 Jan 2008 (Tue)
Busy day at client's side.
At night quickly rushed finished my work and went movies with current colleagues and boss.
Didn't joined them in coffee after movie, I went home instead.

9 Jan 2008 (Wed)
Busy day at work in office.
Super stressed cause I couldn't get my things out for my client for the entire morning.....


Melonseedy Signing Off,
10 Jan 2008, 0002HRS



Monday, January 7, 2008

Fun Sunday

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6 Jan 2008 (Sun)
Met up with Eve to make some planning of my CPF for investments.
All because of the new rulling that the govt will be reinforcing from Apr 2008 onwards.
The new rule means that one cannot make use of the 1st 20k in yr CPF to invest. Can only use anything after that......
And somemore since I can withdraw my money anytime if I dun feel like investing liao, therefore I've decided to use all my balances in Ordinary and Special Account to top up my current fund and to invest in another 2 other funds.
Keeping my fingers cross to make my money 'doubled' or even more for my family's future.
The feeling of empty CPF accounts kinda of weird.... lolz..
We went to the Kopitiam@PS for lunch then went to this special antique shop for coffee.....
Departed at about 4.15pm then I drove to BK@T2 to look for PG & Von.
Reached there slightly before 5pm then we started to chat a bit.... and of course took many pics again..... lolz...
Then as they went back to focus on their studies, I started to take some artistic pics secretly..... such as this one.... PG Under Wraps......... and 九连拍 of PG playing with her chocs..... lolz.....While they were studying halfway, 小小强 decided to drop by..... and PG was kinda of freak-out.... haha..... then I help her '弹' 小小强 away lor...... but she still want me to look for 'it' in case it drop into her bag and she brought it home....
Think we kinda of created a small commotion in the restaurant, even some tourists were looking at us....hahaha...
Well well....PG, you brought it home? Or Von did? hahaha...
Left T2 at about 7.15pm and we spent some time figuring where did I parked my car.... lolz..
We nearly took a lift that I suppose it's meant for crew because it's full of SIA stewardness, so damn malu...... luckily we quickly walked away...... haha...
We went to East Coast Park intending to makan at the Waraku there..... but it was packed.... so we went for the Korean Charocal BBQ instead which PG said its quite famous too...... the restaurant is in one of the following pics behind them ;-)Look at the amount of food we had!
Just to clarify..... we only ordered 2 sets of meat, a pancake and a soup...... the rest all are their appetisers and freebies..... omg....... there should be at least 20 items there...... we had such a shock...... many many vege that we didn't really touch.... haha.... Dinner ended at about 9plus pm then we took a walk along the beach.
We chatted quite a lot....... share thinking, complains..... and everything under the moon.......
In the end we walked a total of about 3km I think according to PG.....
Some darkie pics that we took......After that I sent Von and PG home then reached home at about of 12am plus.
Quite tired when I reached home...... but still I slept at about 2 or 3am.

7 Jan 2008 (Mon)
Went for my regular session. Dunoe why.... super tired manz..... slept from 10am to 1.30pm then 2.30pm to 6pm....... my gosh.... felt like a damn pig man....... had never slept so much in my entire life........
Heng that the session ended earlier at about 8pm then I took a cab home.... worked out to be $6 odds..... think a bit more ex that usual only......
Watched tv...... forumed.... blogged.... going to sleep liao...... hope tomorrow will be a better day at client's site :-)

Nitey everyone~~~~


Melonseedy Signing Off,
8th Jan 2008, 1253HRS

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Working Thru my NYR

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2 Jan 2008 (Wed)
Worked at client's side.
Met one of my client in the lift when we came back from lunch and he commented that I had a hard time for the current project so we'll go for a good lunch after the project ends on the 11th this month, haha.... at least someone appreciates my hardwork and effort put in.
At night went to gym and had 80 minutes of gym which includes cycling, jogging and weight-training which my trainer said its rather good for me.
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3 Jan 2008 (Thu)
Normal day of work at client's site.
Met up with Beckie for lunch as planned and we had the nicey prawn mee at the basement of Arcade. Took some pics of Raffles Place while waiting for her.
Kena spotted by my teammate and was teased for the rest of the day.
Alamak, having lunch with friend also 'funny' meh?
After work the entire team went to geylang for seafood dinner.
Initial planned venue was at a coffeeshop known as EngSengCoffeeShop@JooChiat but by the time we reached there at about 7pm, all the crabs were sold out.... faintz.... then boss proposed NoSignBoard@Geylang. We had our dinner and discussed some work issues till about 9pm then left. Wahahaha...... didn't know boss treating us..... the meal should at least worked out to about at least $200 or $300 since we had 3 crabs and some other seafood for 6 paxs.
One of my senior and me had our very first walk in the 'Red district' with 2 other colleagues to our bus stop..... happening man......
Reached home super full at abt 10plus pm and had my first earliest sleep for the past 6 months at least...... KO at 11.30pm. Managed to fufill my NYR of sleeping earlier... haha....
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4 Jan 2008 (Fri)
Body clock auto woke me up at 6 plus am due to the earlier sleep I had the previous night. Haha.... Guess my bodyclock is already tuned to 6 or 7 hours of sleep only.
Drove and parked in office then took bus and changed MRT to client's site.
Busy day at work as I tried to clear as much as I can before I go for my doc's appointment in the noon and my regular session on Mon.
Noon went for planned lunch with Raine at TheBanquet@CliffordCentre.
Then we went for a cuppa somewhere else...
Realised she's using the handphone strap that I had got for her during her birthday! Really happy to see that :-)
Worked till 3plus pm and decided to skip my eye appointment at 3.35pm as the project were kinda of in a rush.... so stay back to help lor.....
Until 6plus pm then I sent an email to senior and cc my boss who's covering me for my project on mon when I'm not there.
Picked up my car in office and then drove to ex-co to pick up Shan to Vivo.
We had dinner at the foodcourt then chop chop went to shop for a bday present for one of my ex-camp friend.
Then we caught the 9.35pm National Treasure until 11.45pm. Quite a nice show, guessed both of us had enjoyed it :-)
After then we went to a Mac nearby her place for supper and cuppa where she ordered her hot chocolate and my cappuccino.
Look at the silly girl playing with my cup of cappuccino. No lah, actually she's trying to do some design on my cuppa, haha.....
Then I spotted this sign and decided to post it here on my blog.
They used the word 'refrain' instead of not allowed...... kinda of very polite :-)Sped home at about 120 or 130 speed..... reached home in 21 mins time at 2am
KO at 3am.
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5 Jan 2008 (Sat)
Woke up at 12pm and met ex-colleagues for lunch at Vivo.
Then they went shopping and I felt kinda of left out.
Split at 6plus pm.
Watched TV, surfed net, forumed and blogged till now.
Discovered I still had 899 ERS shares still with CPF so quickly withdraw them to help me tide over the period hopefully.

Looking thru the past week, guess I've really managed to work towards my most important new year resolution of Talk Less, Share Less.
Didn't really share a lot with my close friends like I usually do. Even with those whom I will usually sms. Hope I can still continue to keep in this way without 'harming' my close ones and myself.
Got to go sleep liao, tomorrow meeting Eve to plan my CPF investments and maybe join PG & gang to 'disrupt' their studies at the airport, haha.
Nitey everyone.


Melonseedy Signing Off,
6th Jan 2008, 0210HRS

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Happy New Year!

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Aloha everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
Well well well, how is everyone's first day of the brand new year 2008?

I woke up super late at about 1230pm..... think can sleep more de but was disrupted by all the New Year smses in the morning.... haha.... nevermind ba..... actually I'm really glad to had received so many wishings and blessings smses from my friends.... at least its their thoughts ya?

Continued my Prison Break Season II until 9plus pm and finally completed it..... woooshhh.... completed 2 seasons which adds up to about 40 episodes in less than a week.... in fact..... not all days, I only watched on 3 or 4 days of the 6 days duration...... This amount to about 8 to 10 hours spend per day..... oh my gosh..... really no life man..... hahaaha....
I guess it kinda of distracted me away from my bad mood these days too :-)
Hmmm.... since I'm done with the serial..... I need to find some other programmes to distract myself liao....... anyone got Heroes serial DVD to lend me? ;-)

For the rest of the working days on this week, I'll be 'parking' myself at client's place to provide full support..... look at the pantry of my client's place...... coolz huh? My favourite 2 sets of coffeemaker :-)

You guys know where is it right? I did mentioned before.... haha... Also managed to secure 2 'RafflesPlace' friends for lunch on coming Thu and Fri ;-)

Was doing up my finance an hour ago and discover shucks!
My monthly income now is insufficient for me to cover my monthly expenses :-(
I shouldn't have started the monthlyPOSBMySaving thingy last month....... darn it..... I'm in super tight budget now...... my car loan and expenses is really 'loading' me quite a fair bit, and its time to pay road tax soon! Guess I've to watch my spendings liao :-(

Maybe tomorrow after work I should resume my gym to 'test' out the condition of my leg... kinda of stress lately too...... time to destress!
Sigh..... kinda of tired.... guess I better rest earlier to prepare for 'One Man War' tomorrow at client's place.

Last but not least...... my Resolutions for the brand New Year >>>>>
1. To Save many many money, it's time to build up my 'backup funds'
2. To Lead a healthier life with more exercise and be more compliant for my night jabs
3. Open eyes big big and look out for The Right One
4. Open eyes big big and befriend the correct friends
5. Learn to 'protect' myself
6. Drive more carefully and 'embedded' all the roads in SG into my memory or just buy a GPRS HP lah.... haha..
7. Have more rest and sleep earlier everyday
8. See Less, Hear Less, Talk Less, Share Less
9. Realising my wishes on my wishlist one by one without much 'constraints'


Melonseedy Signing Off,
2nd Jan 2007, 0040HRS

Lifeless

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No one is going to believe that I had countdown to my 2008 at home with my com and my tv.... And yes... its me all alone..... And I ended my last day of 2007 with the worst luck I ever had......

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Morning went back to office, discovered one overnight job that I had left running over the weekend failed. So I quickly tried to salvage it but still until 11am nothing could be done. So I called senior who was on mc and allow him to remote into my com to tune whatever he needs to get it done to get me up on my work. I even skipped going out lunch with colleagues to standby for his call..... but he called me at about 2pm and told me that the entire db had been corrupted and nothing can be done...... So I had to call client to explain that we can't submit the job on time.
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Then more news came..... the group of friends that I'm suppose to meet for dinner and countdown..... are trying to 'fly planes'...... 2 of them called last night to tell me that they will join us after dinner and 1 will be accompanying her gf and her friends after I've made the reservations.... and they didn't even bothered to inform me earlier when I sms them about dinner....... then another 1 told me she out of budget and will look for her own free meal and join us after that.... and this morning 1 of them informed me that her grandma is in serious condition so might not be able to join us..... this I can understand.... but the last one..... asked whether can he just join us for dinner cause he's thinking of asking some gal outta for midnight movie..... so much so for my 'friends & buddy'....... I got fed up and cancelled the dinner, the countdown and everything.....

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We are supposed to knock off at 3pm as half day for NY eve but my Boss came in at about 3plus pm..... and guess wat...... after much discussion between him and my senior..... they wanna get the data out for the client by today.
My boss and I started working on the data until 4.30 then I told me boss I need to go and extend my parking coupon.... so I went ahead for a breather and extended my parking for another 2 hours till 6.30pm......
Finally the entire dataset came thru at about 6plus pm..... so I started my part on the work while my boss did something else while waiting for me....... the bloody data keep playing tricks on me...... I keep converting excel 2003 to 2007 and back to 2003.... wat a damn waste of time.....

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Finally at about 8.30pm after submitting the data to client, I gave boss a ride home since its on the way........
Guess wat.... bingo..... the last 'surprise' came.......
I got a $20 parking fine clipped onto my windscreen. And the fine was issued at 7.30pm!!! Wat in the world are the Ciscos doing outta in the street on a night of New Year??? And of all the hours that I had coupons covered from 10.30am to 2.30pm and 4.30pm to 6.30pm and he had to come at 7.30pm?

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Was thinking of whether should I dropped by GalleryHotel to join my another of friends for dinner and drink anot..... but guess the company was kinda of weird for me to fit in...... its kinda of weird having dinner with 2 couples..... so in the end I decided to have dinner with my boss at a coffeeshop nearby my office......
And after sending my boss home, I simply just sped home cutting in between cars from left to right and right to left...... kinda of felt like speeding and was thinking perhaps if my luck really run out, I might even meet a TP who might stop me and give me another ticket for it...... but guess I still had some luck left there.....

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Discovered that I kinda of like to 'give up my life' and sped alone whenever I'm not feeling good.
The feeling of being super fast makes me 'lifeless'......
Perhaps ending my life would makes me feel better at times? Dun need to think, won't feel sad, no more worries, no more naggings, no more quarrels, no more money problems, no more family problems, no longer have to 'maintain' friendship, no more of everything.....


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Countdown alone in front of my tv and com..... then continued watching my 2nd season of PrisonBreak...... hopefully my new Year 2008 would be a better year for me..... Had some New Year Resolutions...... hope I can fufill it all soon....


Melonseedy Signing Off,
1-Jan-2008, 0235HRS



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