船到桥头自然直?

I've been having many challenges for the past weeks and therefore my mood had been going up and down lately.......
Had also been falling sick lately with the flu flying around these days.......
Apologies for those whom had been affected by my mood....... and I hope things will be better for me really soon....

From having to accept death and birth is part and parcel of life..... to
Planning for my career......
Clear my debts and start saving for the future.....
Start to plan to settle down and no more 'playing'....
Avoiding politics even in volunteering.....
Overcoming transition with my love one....
How to be a play a part of a good half of another....
How not to think so much......

Really hope all my worries and challenges will be 'ironed' out soon....
As chinese proverb says... 船到桥头自然直...... hope it will really come true.....


Worried Melonseedy Signing Off,
26th April 2009, 2345HRS

Beautiful Love

A lovely story to share......

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21. Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US . Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.The other couple in the picture are Nick ' s parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods.

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think.....

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts .

We should stop making our lives complicated.
Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

Miracle & Hope

Came back and hour ago from hospital.

Today is the first time I held the hand of a kid whom I had known her for almost 3 years.

M is not in very good condition and might be going anytime.....

Mum smsed me that M is comfortable to have me around so she hope that I can try to spend more time with M during these few days knowing her condition.

Seeing her today breathing with oxygen assistance and the spots on her...... conversing to me very slowly due to breathless..... sickly body.... shivering.... and all the needle pokes on both her hands..... the bloated hand due to too much drips..... its really heart wrenching to see her suffer...

Then I held her hands cause she was cold....

Her small hands held on tightly to me.... is like she dun want me to leave or she herself dun want to 'leave'..... her tiny cold hands...... yearning for some warmth and love and assurance.......

There's nothing much I can do to help except to spend more time with her....... but seriously I dun think I can cope with the day when it arrive......

I know I need to be prepare myself for the worst and be strong it order to help her family tide over the worst...... but still..... I'm still struggling emotionally....

I know I'm a free thinker..... but can all the gods out there create a miracle for M?

She's barely 12 and is coming to end of her path..... she haven seen the world enough.

My friends whom have your own religion.... please help me to pray for a miracle for M to recover.

Hopeful Melon Signing Off,

19th April 2009, 0052HRS

Emotional Intelligence Quotient

[From Facebook]

Ryan took the quiz What is your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)? and the result is Your EQ is 112

You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content.

You live your life well.

Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.

You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.

You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things.

When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better.

晴天

[From Facebook]

Ryan took the What Jay Chou song are u? quiz and the result is Qing Tian

You love to be free like a soaring eagle, unrestrained and people will look up to you, if not now, in future they will.

You are a savior and a noble lover!

You'll make great sacrifices for your love with nothing intended in return but only their freedom. Your love should be proud of u! JiaYous!!

In Loving Memories of 阿桑

Being A Mermaid

[From Facebook]

Ryan just took the "What dark creature are you?" quiz and the result is Mermaid.

You are most likely a beautiful person, or a goody goody.

You say and do all the right things to please all the right people, but you are sad or hateful on the inside.

You are scared if people knew the real you they wouldn't want to hang out anymore.

With your 'fake' personality you lure people in and probably not the right kind.

Learn to love yourself more and good things will happen.

The Other Perspective of Imperfection

Imperfections might not be a bad thing.
Learn to see the other perspective of your love ones' imperfection before its too late to do so.
Appreciate what you are having now.

Man & Woman

Had an interesting discussion with some friends this noon.

Why does man likes to hide their feelings and things from others?
Why does woman likes to share everything with everyone?
Is it possible to find a man who shares everything and a woman who hides everything.

Why does man prefer to share abt their work & career with their males friends rather than female.
Why does man prefer to share abt their r/s and emotional issues with their female friends?
Preliminary explanation is man thinks that speaking abt their career or job to female friends will not help at all and speaking to woman abt their r/s is to get their opinions of what are they thinking about cause man always don't understand what woman is thinking about.

Life is so Fragile

Today received a devastating sms from my ex-camper's mum.
Doctor said M's condition worsed and there's nothing they can do already.
Dad told me her condition had aggrevated in just 2 weeks..... and so the next few weeks is critical period......
So parents had also decided to let go and wait for miracle to come.

I visited M after my session and we chatted quite happily.
She even watch DeathNote Part II with me while having her PepperLunch.
Cannot imagine that a 10-odd plus girl's is ending her path in the next few weeks..... I really can't imagine.
Why is life so fragile?
Is Mr Death too lonely?

Sometime I wonder..... when is Mr Death coming to look for me too?
What will happen to my love ones when the day comes?

It's Not Worth It

Recently there had been many irritating and disgusting humans hanging aro my life.
These people had always been aro me as my so called friends..... and their ugly side just surfaced lately......
These humans appeared to be kind, nice, helpful and etc...... and they really act very well.

To me, perhaps I treat my friends very seriously.
Its really heart-wrenching when I discovered their ugly side.
And it simply just makes me super unhappy for days.......
Worse, it might even lead to unhappiness and conflict between innocent parties.....

Sometimes I just wondered why such humans exist.
Do they exist to 'spice up' or 'mixed up' the pure world?
What's the point?

Whatever it is, what my friends told me is right.
There are and will be many such pple aro and its no point to get myself worked up over them.
They are not worth the effort for me to be upset.

As what my friend said,
If you think you treat a person nice and he/she will treat you nice, then you are wrong.
Don't set your own expectation of other people.
You treat people well doesn not mean they have to treat you well too.
Only treat those people whom you think is worth treating them well.

Any hereby I wish God can keep these nonsense people far far away from my love ones, my friends and me.

Melon's EQ

You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content.

You live your life well.

Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.

You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.

You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things.

When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better.