LoSt

The feeling of lost is back again.
This time it feels like losing a friend.
Is it the feeling of losing a friend that hurts? or is it something else?

Still remember the last time I had such feeling and I got into my first accident.
It kinds created a 'wall' in my heart blocking me from doing what I wanna do.
It definitely took away my concentration and focus.

This time round, I thought I acted well.
I couldn't really put up my mask...... therefore I had to bring out my 'trauma' to laugh about.....
Its not that I dun want to give my wishes.... but its just that I really couldn't bring myself to say those words.
I thought I could have more time to 'release' myself...... but it just came too sudden like the previous time.

Sometimes people have to learn to let go...... how long it takes? No one really knows.....

寂寞

每当看见朋友或街上的人成双成对是，‘羡慕与寂寞’就开始浮现在我脑海里。
羡慕他们没有寂寞的感觉，羡慕他们可以彼此承担烦恼，共享喜乐。

为了‘赶走’寂寞，我总是得翻阅手机里的电话簿寻找朋友们出来吃饭走走。
幸好我还拥有一群知心的朋友不嫌我烦。
朋友们，谢谢你们。你们是我唯一的推动力。

但是这种‘寻找朋友’的举动我实在开始感到厌倦了。
最近可能以为工作开始繁重的关系，我便开始利用工作来‘埋葬’寂寞，连经常看电影的习惯也没了。
除了工作还是工作。不然就是一个人躲在房间里看电视节目与上网。

最近我正在嚼尽脑汁撮合一对跟我一样寂寞的人。真的很希望他们很快就能离开这个寂寞俱乐部。

当别人问起我一个人时，我总会有一大堆的理由来回复。
最常用的也是最能安慰自己的借口就是‘男人三十才开始’。
可是我很快就要到三十了，就快不能利用这个借口了。

难道我真的得‘寂寞地为事业打拼’这两年？

难道寻找一个能与我同享快乐与悲伤的人真的这样难吗？

Warozzz.......

Too much work, so yesterday wanna worked from home to settle all the pending stuff.
At home less distractions from people so can work better.
But my team lead ask me to inform my manager, in the end manager ask me to take mc.
So immediately I go and take mc and logged off from my terminal. angryz manz........
I'm wondering whether my team lead got inform my manager anot when she work from home...... kns..... double standards..... must be using me as guinea pig.......

Today skipped Jap class cause PG couldn't make it. Luckily we skipped, I also work till 6.30pm plus and am still working from home now!!!.....
Super busy preparing materials for tomorrow 'war' with my manager and IT people.
Hope everything will be smooth, my friends must pray for me yah?

Need to go sleep liao... tomorrow going office earlier for last preparation...... GAMBATTE!!!!


Melonseedy Signing Off,
14th-Oct-2008, 2355HRS

Whenz......???

Sigh, trip might be delay due to unconfirm stuff and unfinished work.
Can only go as planned if things all settled within these 2 weeks....
Otherwise fly there eat sushi then come back sure kena screwwww.......
Just hope that defer will not clashed with my Genting trip a week later....arghhh......

Yesterday went to Ah Goh hse to play manjong, drink vokha, play cards, feast and watched crapped shows...... lolz... had so much fun......
Ah Goh, thanks for your open hse yah ;-)
Reached home at 2 plus am still downed a bottle of HoeGaarden to sleep better...haha.... slept till 1pm manz..... good sleep..... then watch tv, cleared some work until now..... going to sleep liao... otherwise tomorrow look like panda....

Hmmmm, my this week pretty packed......
Mon - Wedding Dinner
Tue - Jap Class
Wed - Pool session?
Thu - Dinner with TH?
Fri - looking for buddies?
Sat - Tomato Drinking session
Sun - Work? Family Day? Slacked?

Goingz to sleep liaoz....... oyasumi~~~~~


Melonseedy Signing Off,
13th-Oct-2008, 0011HRS

Trip Confirmed

This week is full of trainings and meetings back to back... only half hrs in between here and there for short breathe...... sigh......

Tomorrow even worse, team lead going to have lunch meeting with me to plan for our Japan trip. Lunch time also cannot breathe...... sigh sigh sigh....

Oh yah, cfm going to Japan end of this month liao..... maybe about 5 days from 27th to 31st..... hope I can come back in time on Nov 1st for TH's wedding...

Heard that Japan working life very xiong.... most likely will worked until 10plus pm when I'm there everyday...... then no time to rest and relax liao.... somemore come back must write report on what you do there..... so ma fan....... pray pray it will be a good trip.

Just popped medi..... going to koonz liao....

Nitey...

Melonseedy Signing Off,

7-Oct-2008 0009HRS

Feeling terrible

Just came out from toilet after diarhorea and vomitting...... feelings sucks man....

Popped flu, diahorea, digestive, cough, tummyache and pills of everything..... feeling bad now.... going to coma liao....

oyasuminasai.

Melonseedy Signing Off,

4-Oct-2008 0025HRS

Pictures time!

30th Sept 2008 Pre-Puasa Celebration

26th~28th Sept 2008 The F1 Singapore GrandPrix

26th Sept 2008 Amos & Jasmine Wedding
My One Day New Look

22nd Sept 2008 Sharon's Birthday

2nd Sept 2008 Sally's Birthday

22nd Aug 2008 Serene's Farewell

Hope you all enjoyed the pics!

Going Overseas

Yoyoyo..... long time never update blog le.....
There are so many things for me to update.... and therefore here I am!
Curious why during office hrs? its bez I had been on mc for the past 2 days.....
but still i had to attend con-call from home.... sounds crap huh? but no choice..... as long as my voice is with me, i have to participate....hahaha...

well well..... my jap classes started since 9th Sep..... attended 2 lessons then skipped the other 2.... lolz.... cause of commitments to eat fish slice beehoon and pre-puasa celebration... sounds ridiculous huh? but its true.....haha...
The jap teacher does not really knows english, so we have to figure our own way out....lolz... luckily she's nice and patient to teach us unlike the stupid adminstrator who suan us when we informed them we are unable to attend the lesson and wants make-up classes..... i sure will 'screw' her up the next time if i need to talk to her. Crappy pple everywhere.

Exactly a week ago was my buddy's wedding and at this time i think we were on our way to their hotel. I had lots of fun at their wedding being their 'brother' who followed them the entire day... lolz.... but its really tiring.... cause we had min sleep....
Thurs night - Bachelor night until 2am
Fri - 6am reach groom's hse and with them until 1am plus
Sat Night - Went to bridal's suite to stay over with some friends... slept at 5am...
Sun - Woke up at 9am and stayed outside until 11pm plus...
I'm really happy for the couple throughout the entire wedding except for some personal relations problem during and after the wedding.

Tues suppose to have lesson but we skipped and had dinner before going for our pre-puasa celebration with ex-colleagues ;-) We had great fun updating each other (gossiping) and all the way to T3 for supper until 3am plus.

Wed rest at home and did some work.

Yesterday and today reported sick because of cough, flu & mild asthma. Most likely to have caught a cold in the rain and did not had enuff sleep lately. This morning had a con-call and was informed that I might need to travel to Japan end of this month with my team lead for business trip. Sounds exciting.... but come to think of I need to fork out my own money for the trip first before I can claim and have to write report when I'm back sounds sianz......

Nov will also be going Genting with my colleagues. And March might be going Phuket or somewhere else with my Thal kar kees ;-) Sounds like a lot of travelling for me soon.... so looking forward to them manz....... (have to watch out for my saving in pocket already!)

Time to go Zzzzz after my super drowsy medi....... will upload the pics again! Sayonara!



Melonseedy Signing Off,
3-Oct-2008, 1500HRS